Hello guys, long time no see! Honestly, I hadn’t realised it had been so long since I had written anything (a month is not my usual ‘break’ style and I definitely did not intend to stay away for this long). However, life happened and unfortunately this platform was put to the very bottom of my list of things to do.
I hope you have not missed me too much! Quite a bit has happened since my last post so I thought it would be quite apt to come back with a bit of a breakdown of the past month. I turned 22 a week ago (someone told me I looked 18 the other day and I don’t know whether to be happy or sad about that but I’ll take it as a compliment). I was very lucky to be surrounded by my good friends and felt utterly spoilt!
I would love to give you some profound information about reaching the ripe old age of 22 but honestly I have no idea what I am doing and that is probably very similar to the majority of people in their early 20’s. I also do not feel any older or wiser and I hope that, in some senses, I never do.
Apart from getting a year older, my life has been packed with good food, ceilidh dancing, netball and a lot of reading.
My dissertation is due in 6 weeks and I am definitely starting to feel the pressure. I do intend to do a full update on the process in the next few weeks so keep your eyes peeled for that. With that process heading to the finish line, I am also reaching the end of my fourth year which means job hunting (a prospect that is equally as scary as it is exciting). I’ve prepped my CV, applied for jobs and have had an interview – unfortunately it was unsuccessful but that is life – so if you know of any jobs going, particularly in the publishing, PR, journalism or marketing world then hit me up!
I have also just completed my mid term assessments, signed up for counselling (not something I’d usually share but I think transparency is key and it is okay to ask for help, it took me far too long to do it), and I have competed in far too many netball matches to count.
Life is busy and stressful which just seems to be the ‘ordinary’ right now. If I am honest, I am quite surprised I have managed to stay upright and sane with how much is going on in different parts of my life right now.
I did start to film more reels and TikToks but I also fell out of the rhythm of doing that (what a surprise). Generally, I think some people don’t realise how much effort goes into filming, editing and planning them out. But, I did upload quite a few at the beginning of the month if you want to check out my account! Video content is something I have surprised myself with, I really enjoy making them and find the end product very therapeutic and satisfying.
Apart from job hunting, I have been thinking more about life and what that is going to look like in the next year (I don’t like to look too far ahead, especially considering this year is already going to be full of a lot of change). I have come to the conclusion that I am going to try my absolute hardest to stay here in Edinburgh. I love the city, I have not had the chance to properly live in it for a prolonged period of time and it feels like home. Plus, there is definitely more here for me than there is at home (the very North of Scotland).
It would be wrong for me to sit here and state how stressful life has been without acknowledging the horrendous and inhumane war that is happening in Ukraine. My heart goes out to each and everyone of you having to suffer at the hands of Putin and the idiocracy of him and his government. It baffles me that we have come to a point where selfishness and entitlement has led to death and destruction AGAIN, you would have thought people would have learnt their lesson. I am definitely not an expert on the subject and do not wish to add noise to an already heavily misinformed and confused perception of the current state of affairs however I do urge you to do your research, find ways to help and keep everyone at the helm of this suffering in your thoughts.
Overall, this past month has been about reconnecting with friends, reflecting and thinking about the future. I am trying to get into the headspace that everything will work out in the end, at the end of the day I can only try my best.
How have you been? What has been the most important thing in your life recently – let me know below!
Sending all the love,