It’s a bit scary to think I’ve already written 30 posts. To be honest I wasn’t sure if I’d make it past 8. However, in saying that, the reception I’ve received and what I’ve gained from not only being more honest to my readers but with myself is something I will always cherish.
I thought I’d round up my thoughts and share with you not only the highs but the lows, because yes, even in these short few months, I’ve had lows when it comes to this fantastic platform.
I want to start with the fact that Blogging is scary. You are putting yourself – your thoughts, feelings and emotions – into one place for absolutely anyone and everyone to read. That definitely plays a big part in second guessing yourself and doubting whether sharing your sacred thoughts to your potential future employer for example is the smartest idea on the planet. This is exactly where the lows come from (and the creative drought that leaks into your brain every so often).
Yet I wouldn’t have started this if I wasn’t aware of the fact anyone could be reading it and it is that (even though it scares me) which pushes me to make my writing even better and talk about subjects which people might not feel 100% comfortable broaching. I’ve always been scared of writing and the judgment that comes with it but if I want to better myself and my techniques then writing 2-3 blog posts a week is most likely the only way that’s going to happen. I think if anything I’ve learned that if someone reads this it is because they are interested, those who don’t want too aren’t forced to come here and I am extremely okay with that.
For me these 30 blog posts have given me the chance to share my struggles and frustrations with things that I come across, and as a 20 year old there is quite a lot of them (trust me). But on the other hand, it also allows me to share things I love and give support and admiration to those who deserve it. I feel empowered and invigorated having an outlet that is completely mine and I love the creative freedom it gives me.
However, with this creative freedom comes the feeling A LOT of the time that I am imposing on a space I’m not good enough for or feeling down about what I am not achieving. As a competitive person who is also a perfectionist this has always been a difficult subject for me. Although I must admit I am doing better at this and coming to terms with the fact that it’s a long process to get where I want to be and definitely involves a lot of hard work. Hard work on the other hand which I am willing to put in.
I thought I’d compile just some of the things I’ve achieved in the past few months. More for myself than anyone else;
- Released 2-3 blog posts a week
- Used my instagram as a creative outlet which has allowed me to see my progress as I post
- Gain a small following from what I started with
- Start my own print business within my website (available here)
- learned how to professionally promote my business through interesting graphics
- Joined the #caithnessmarket
- Grow as a person
- Supported businesses through my website
- Created a campaign on sustainable fashion which was shared by leading brands (check out my instagram highlights and this post for more info)
- Created a supportive community on Facebook
- Found what I love and enjoy doing!
I know you probably read through that thinking “wow she’s really promoting herself here” but, like I said in a recent blog post, it’s important to celebrate the successes along the way and I do not do that nearly enough. Plus I don’t think I ever recognised how much work I’ve done in such a short space of time! I adore what I am doing and am so glad there are some of you out there that seem to be loving it as well.
It’s never too late to start something which you have wanted to do for a while or have always dreamt of. If you keep making excuses when will you actually do it? The right time will always be now.
Here is to 30 more blog posts and continuing to feel at home and free in this wonderful space on the internet.